Every time I see an extreme makeover show, it seems to make it look so easy. Every one of the people on the show had something specific they wanted and then he or she is over joyed with the result. Some shows show some sort of the process. However, I don’t think it really tells conflicts that people go through. The stories never tell the audience how some things never change.
I also have a “before and after” photo. My own collage.
A before and after- a plastic surgery- photo, there’s a many years in between and there is this in between the two pictures:
I had my surgery when I was 16. It’s hard to tell the difference just like the pain I went through for the surgery and other stories in life before and after the surgery. “Beauty comes with the pain” someone said this to me as I am totally knocked out by painkillers. I remember thinking, “yeah that’s for people who already have normal face and just wanted to have prettier face.”
For the next few years I thought and observed my progress. This wasn’t just wanting to have better face or be prettier than other. This was my attempt to be normal and be myself. It was way too painful and certainly wasn’t a quick fix. Afterall, I still live with the memories and experience before AND after. I appreciate that I was given a choice to try something and learn something from it. Loving me shouldn’t be painful. Yes, it takes time sometimes but it shouldn’t be painful and has to come with a huge change. It’s not easy but not painful.
Embracing self is not easy. I may not know what is the right choice to make for myself at times. However, I think I know one thing for sure. Loving myself, Being myself and Embracing myself should come with pain.
Before AND after… it was and it is still Me!
Cheers to those of us gone through treatments and surgeries recently or before!!!
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